Reality, Fate & Destiny- Part 38

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I spend the whole day in my room the next day. Mandy's words were playing in my mind over and over again, 'you trusted Hayden more than Adam?' I just can't seem to take my mind off of it. The night after I went home from Mandy's house, mom and dad were arguing and Jack wasn't home so I had to be under the same roof with two adults who always argue. I didn't paid any attention to mom when she asked me where I was.

I just nodded, went straight to my room with my head down and slammed the door. I had to fix it, I want it to be the same and pretend like it didn't happened. The thing that hurts me the most was; I was stupid enough to trust Hayden more than Adam and I regretted it. I couldn't forgive myself for what I have done.

I had an idea on how to fix it but I also had a feeling that it might make things worse. I switched on my laptop, and clicked on Google and typed in Facebook. On the top of my news feed, Adam's status was: "i waited for you for two years. and this is what i get? bitch." My stomach felt like it was tied it a knot and it's impossible to untie it. I tried to ignore the fact that it might be too late, but for the sake of him, I would do anything. All the comments were girls persuading him to forget about me and go out with them but it softens my heart when one of his replies were, 'i'm sorry but no matter how bad she hurts me, my feelings for her wont change :( x'

I had hope for the first time in my life. I knew what I had to do so I shut my laptop and hesitated whether to go to his house or not. I was home alone so I didn't have to worry about mom asking me lots of questions. I gathered my confidence and strutted down the empty neighbourhood and when I reached his house, my heart stopped. I didn't know what to do; run away like I always do or knock on his door and beg for his forgiveness. My fists were curled up, and hung in the air ready to knock when he opened the door and looked briefly at in me surprise.

I was surprised myself when our eyes met, they were the warm, loving hazel-brown orbs that I remembered and not the icy stare that he had given me on our last encounter. I could see a slight dark rings under his eyes. They were barely noticeable signs that he hadn't been sleeping properly.

He abruptly looked at me, "Yeah?"

"Um-" I tried to hide my pain and fears as I quickly rummaged for words through my brain, "I'm sorry Adam," was all I had.

He didn't took his eyes off of me and patiently waited for me to say more. I had more hope, he was giving me a chance to explain what happened. He gestured for me to come in but didn't say a word. I went in, with my head down and fiddled with my fingers. I thought about what I wanted to say before I came. He went over to the kitchen and pour water into the kettle and boiled it.

To my surprise, he offered me, "Tea?"

I shook my head and gave him a warm smile but he rolled his eyes instead looking annoyed. My smile turned into a frown and I bit my lip. "I'm making you one whether you want it or not so just shut up about it," he said. I muttered okay under my breath and waited awkwardly for him to come back into the living room.

The kettle whistled and he came back into the living room with two cups on a tray. He poured the boiling water and stirred the liquid.

"Thanks," I said sounding nervous. He took a sip from the hot beverage and licked his lips perfectly.

I ran through my hair sheepishly and caught his gaze, "Please forgive me." I said with all the courage I had in my heart.

Furrowing his brow, he looked like he was about to say something, but then changed his mind. I carried on, "I'm really sorry Adam. I just lost it for a second and I didn't know why I did that. I shouldn't have believe what Hayden said. I was jealous and.. and I was feeling insecure. If I could go back in time and undo my mistakes, I would. I should've trusted you, and I don't want to lose you. You're the bestest thing that ever happened to me and goddamnit I feel like complete shit for treating you this way."

Calmly, he placed his hot cup of tea on the table and crossed his arms against his chest. He closed his eyes for a minute. I could see that he was lost in his thoughts, and bit his bottom lip. He sighed, opening his eyelids and stare at the ceiling. I took a sip of my tea and waited anxiously for what he has to say. "I forgive you," he breathe. My eyes widened, my jaw dropped, my heart jumped. "I shouldn't really forgive you but I know that in relationships, people do stupid things and I'm sure if I fuck something up, you would forgive me too, so I guess I love you more than my ego."

My heart dropped and the butterflies were pirouetting around my stomach again. But they felt nice there, like where they belonged. I smiled gratefully and put the cup down. I knelt in front of him, and held his hand firmly. My eyes were filled with tears of joy and he cupped my face in his hands. Slowly, he kissed me with love and passionate. I kissed him back and right at the moment, I had made up my mind. I wanted to be with him, Adam Thane. Forever.

I woke up as the bright sunlight streamed through the gap in the curtains of Adam's bedroom. Despite that his room smelled like cigarettes and alcohol, I felt a surge of unadulterated happiness. Which may or may not have been something to do with the large, warm hand that was rested on my stomach. I couldn't help but smile. His hand on my stomach stirred, and a groan escaped his pouty lips. "Whas the time?" he muttered still half asleep.

"Early." I said still smiling fondly watching him pushed his hair clear out of his eyes. He blinked furiously in an attempt to get used to the light. He kissed my lips softly and his head landed on my laps. I looked at him with loving eyes, and ruffled with his hair. He groaned, and a soft chuckled escaped. "I love you," he reminded me. The butterflies return and I put my head on his. I wanted the moment to last so bad but I was interrupted by a text from Jack.