Reality, Fate & Destiny- Part 36

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I felt like an idiot sitting there on my bed, half naked, sobbing while there were a really attractive guy in front of me. I took my bra and put it back on and walked over to get my shirt which was on the floor next to my denim shorts. He sat there in silent as if he was waiting for me to ask or say something. I tried my best to stop myself from crying so I wiped the stubborn tears away and sat next to him but kept a certain distance between us.

He broke the awkward silence between us, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that, you were just too tempting for me, for anyone." My eyes grew bigger and sat closer to him. I sniffed and chewed my bottom lip. I tried to make conversation but I just couldn't seemed to find the right words to say. My heart felt like it has stopped beating, my body was still numb and my mouth went dry.

"I'm sorry, I-I lied to you Jade," he said which made me jumped out of bed and on my feet.

"What?" I managed to speak in disbelief. He looked at me with his piercing green eyes and a frown on his face. He looked sad and wanted my sympathy but I wasn't quite sure why. My fingers suddenly twitch and I could feel blood running in my veins again. I could feel my face were burning, and clenched my fists.

"I- I didn't know what I was doing, you- you," Hayden stuttered. I gave him like at least ten minutes to give me an explanation but he couldn't find the right words to put in a sentence.

"What you told me about Adam and Sierra, that was a lie wasn't it?" I asked. I could feel the anger boil inside of me and I just wanted to go and find Adam and fixed everything before it was too late but I needed an explanation from him.

"Not all of it," he muttered under his breath that I could barely hear him.

"Not all of it?!" this time I did yelled and I couldn't control my anger. I felt like a complete idiot for letting this to happen although technically we didn't have sex. I was surprised when I heard a soft sob from Hayden. I felt sorry for him, but I didn't know why he would lie to me and I still felt stupid for believing him way too easy.

He got up and look straight into my hazel eyes and I could see hurt and sadness in his eyes. I licked my lips and put on a top when I realised that I wasn't wearing anything other than my bra and shorts. I ran downstairs when my brother groaned sleepily, "What the fuck was that? Where you goin'?" he asked but I ran outside. I didn't even care if Hayden was still in my room or if I'll get in trouble with Jack after, at that moment, I just needed to find Adam.

I tried calling him a few times but it kept going into his voicemail. I looked all over for him in the suburbs but couldn't seem to find him. Then, something crossed my mind; his house were just a few block down. I ran there until I was out of breath and rang the doorbell hoping that he would be home.

Lucky for me he was. I sighed with relieve when he opened the door and smiled at me lovingly. I jumped into his arms and he hugged me tightly. I sobbed and we were both sitting on the doorway. He didn't say a word, instead he hugged me even tighter which made me cry even louder. I didn't know what to say to him; I was scared. I felt dirty, I felt like I did the most stupidest thing anyone could have ever done. I cried and cried and it must've been like half an hour.

"Baby, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asked finally and kissed my head. It made me want to cry even more but I knew that I just had to tell him; I couldn't bare lying to him because I already betrayed him. I tilted my head and saw the most beautiful boy I have ever seen in my life. I started to speak and he shushed me, and kissed my forehead gently. He got up and helped me on my feet, "Let's go inside okay?" he smiled. I nodded and followed him inside wiping the tears away.

We sat on the sofa where he put his arms around me and held my hand. "Now you can tell me what's wrong," he said sounded so relaxed and calm. Adam was always like that, he know his ways with words and how to make a chaotic situation calm. I stuttered, my mouth were open but words didn't come out. I was too afraid of hurting him but then I realised, if I didn't tell him, it would cause much more trouble.

"Hayden, he- he came over after you left," I whispered looking down at our hands. I held it tighter but I could feel his loosen a bit.

"Oh," he said, "he texted me to come to practise but no one were there so I went home. I was planning on seeing you after I take a nap."

"He came over and I made out with him," I said as fast as I could hoping that he didn't catch a word I said. He let go of my hand and looked at me seriously and was stunned. I could see hurt and a lighting of anger flashed in his eyes.

"What?" it mumbled softly but he sounded like someone had stabbed him in the heart and it has caused him so much pain.

I burst into tears, "I'm sorry," was all I managed to say. I swallowed searching for words to explained what had happened.

Adam's eyes were clouded with hurt and I knew he wanted an explanation from me but I just didn't seem to have any at the moment. As calm as Adam was, I knew that this mattered didn't seem like a small matter to him. His warm face suddenly turned into a cold, stern stone that were carved out into a human form.