Thursday 9 May 2013

And before we know it, another month went by.


Ayu - V.E 

It's May now. Another week and then I'm off for my semester break for two months. How bout that eh? I'm finishing my first semester in college and sooner or later, I'll become a diploma graduate. Time works that fast, it really genuinely scares me so much sometimes. My experience in college for five months, has been bittersweet and there are many more months and a couple of years to come. I'm unsure of how it'll be like, of what drama I'll face, what challenges but somehow, I'm quite ready and if it shall happen, it happens. 

Anyways, I haven't updated anything in a month. I started writing again on Wattpad and I've been planning to keep writing during this semester break. It feels good to finally write again, honestly. It's like I'm back on the right track and thanks to Anthony, I know I am. But not for now as I have to focus on what needs to be done first. I'm also going to learn how to drive soon - yes, it's lame that I don't know how to drive yet considering everyone else knows how to - and maybe get my license after my birthday this year. Life will  be easier then.

You know when you fancy someone so much, but they only see you as nothing more than a kid or a friend or a sister and it hurts you real bad because no matter how hard you try you can't change their perspective of you. Well, you can but it's a hard thing to do and somewhere in between trying to impress them, you lost yourself and changed. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. I'm having one of those moments, where I just really fancy someone so much but they don't know of it, or maybe they do but choose to deny it because they might think it's stupid or childish of me to ever like someone like them.

I have a tendency of liking the wrong person, it's ridiculous. Girls usually go for the romantic, charming ones and then I tend to like those who are total douchebags. It is just a crush, and it's normal for people to have crushes on anyone but I really really like him. I really do. I just hope the feeling fades away soon and I'll be moving on to the next. As slutty as it sounds, I don't really do anything about it to be honest. I just decide the guy is charmingly good looking or attractive, and I fall for him for about five minutes and then it's all gone. That's normal.

Other than that, I feel okay about everything. I can't wait for June, there are so many things planned with the family and for once, I'm actually really excited to do some family bonding time. 
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